With the industrial attachment and more outdoor activities i have to go during the holidays...ive a feeling im getting further and further away from cosplay.. not that ive loose interest in cosplay jus that everything just clashes....
Ive always have to sacrifice the things i like to do for something that i have to do...A feeling of sense of longing in my heart. Dere's so many things i wan to do in my life, but im stuck and i cant get out...I WAN TO BE FREE!!!
However, life is not that easy and life is indeed unfair...to me i have to work my ass off to live. Cos i know the only thing i can do is to depend on myself. Sometimes i just wish i could scream and shout and cry...For once in my life, can i vent my frustrations and not swallow them down?? Pretending and smile as if theres not a slightest thing happen in my life...im used to this a long time ago.
"When people are lonely they need your company
and
when they found someone new they throw you away
or
ignore u in that sense..they are just not there to help you but to depend on you.
taking advantage of the things that there is to offer from us..."
"self-centred-ness"
