Things have not been so well for me nearing the end of 2011. There are many good and bad memories. Memories that i would want to forget and some to keep inside my heart. Christmas and new year's eve was not really a good one. I was really sad and heartbrokened....yes i agree, i regreted what i had done i shouldnt have pushed my luck too hard untill it ended up like that. But in the first place, there was no trust to begin with. I really want to just chill and drink with friends and not go partying clubbing. The way he respond to me was cold and angry, comments are heartbreaking. I think maybe i do not deserve anymore chances or forgivenes from him anymore.
Others may not know how i feel all these while, may not know the reasons of my behavior. Do yon know that everytime i react have a reason behind it and i do not just react juz because i like it. Yes, i maybe rebelious u can cor me naughty...but do you know why i am like that or u juz look only at the surface???? Do you know whenever i am sad or angry inside, i do not know how to express it..
Nevertheless, its a new year. Maybe i should juz look forward. And think carefully what i want to be in the future. Think of who are my real friends. Life there will be lots of challenges, i believe i can be strong enough to face it. My dreans and goals always stays the same it never changes. I will work towards the goal, earn lots of money and soon gain the freedom that i deserve to have.
