Finally in 3 months time i am really looking forward to the life that i wanted really really so much. The path that i always dreamed of, study in an arts school....and then create works for a design company. Or even better to set up my own company. Those last three years, though i felt kinda wasted of time but i oso learnt some valuble lessons form there. For now its hard to say that i might get in to NAFA but i have already set my mind that i will definately work hard and do well for it.
Rccently i am very depressed because of many unhappy things that i experienced. I am too sad that i could even feel my heart aches. Sometimes i really wanted to shout at them but i dont have the courage to do so. One day i just feel like leaving the family, and have my own life. I dont want to be in their control.....i am uncertain that when i am 21 years old they are still treating me the same. And sad to say ived lost my ring....i remember vividly that its in my pocket but now its gone. I searched my room and its nowhere to be found. :( Today baby went to NS le.... wishing him all the best! Yesturday went with baby to see alice in wonderland in 3d....it was really nice...kinda sad that baby is going ns the next dae, i will miss him alot and alot!!!!
Rants:
"FUCK YOU!!!! when i am trying to pick myself up again....you always try to pull me down. dont you knoe that you are FUCKING IRRITATING! aren't u suppose to be the support?? Then why such comments?? When i am trying so hard, you gave me hurtful comments...What is this! Pressurize me with the things that i dont want to do...and you said that it is part of life...YOU ARE WRONG...I want to seek my happiness in my own way....life is not only about money but to complete own goals is the ultimate happiness and brings in more money.
