Today went to work again...actually don feel like going but no choice cos dad fetch me to work. In the car i keep thinking of some lame excuses to take leave. LOL! Reached Tampines Junction and time to go to 6th storey to get ready for war. Haz...so many office politics tts why i hate politics only make more people suffer and people save themselves only. Feeling better now cos my team members only go for afternoon shift and at least cant see team leaders face for a few hours more. So not so stress, saw Michelle and Joyce. They seemed to be better off than me i think. Michelle seemed as hyper as ever and me as cold as ice. Why i say that becos my work table is near the aircon, some more my work make my heart become so hard. I have to swallow my anger and sad emotions, when i got rejected by customers, and me blaming myself for not being good enough as "THEM". Scared my heart numb sia...wait i dont know how to feel anymore.
Lunch break!! was excited at least i get some fresh air and relax. Gabriel, Michelle and me went to eat at that malay stall near tampines stadium. Met the superiors, gave a fake smile at the supervisor that i had to give face to her...Juz pretending to be nice to her only and i bet she is doing the same thing too. Haha! After eating Gabriel was "building castles in the air". He kept toking about what he will do when he won the $10 million toto. Back at office finally team leader came she wants to talk to me about her expectations again. Blah! Blah! Blah! REPLACEMET! Blah! Blah! Blah!...ect. When i heared of the word"REPLACEMENT" i was quite happy! in my heart i was thinking"FINE YOU CAN FIRE OR TRANSFER ME! I DUN GIVE A DAM ALREADY! Then she called me to do at least 38+ prospects which i was already struggling to get 30 already by the end of the day. She thinks people can improve so much in one day ar!
Anyway to maintain my 30 prospects and their "FACE" i sit at my table for 3 solid hours without toilet breaks. Cos i don wan them to see me as a faliure...this kind of job i must say have to depend on luck, time,how good your coustomers are, your cute voice and how to meet people expectations. Haz...i hope tml will be the last day of my work. When i listen to the music i feel like dancing, its time to get membership at studio wu or 'O' school since i have the money. Make good use of the money to gain some dancing skills. Whee *dreaming* i have 1 month to do intensive hiphop training.. I hope so!
