Oooo...its a long time since ive blogged haha cos ive lost my password, so took a while to get it back. During these days i feel that there is a change in me. Not in personality( im still da crazy gal) but change in the mindset. There is so many things that i had realise myself that i cant always depend on others, friends are always come and go, family members cant support me forever and sometimes i feel so alone and lost. Its time to learn to be INDEPENDENT!
I thought that i had totally given up in hiphop. But God has given me an opportunity again. Now i have a goal something to look forward to, no longer stranded on what's my future gonna be like. Im going to Join jacky's hiphop class. Yes! He wants to recruit members....and i want to be part of the crew!( psst* i have to do well to be in da crew) i want to stand on the stage and feel proud of myself that i can dance like nobodys business. Yea! thou i will be v busy trying to take up as many skills as possible( guitar, electric guitar, ballet, hiphop) i wan to master them and make use of these skills in future.
Me and Cassandra (ballet classmate)was having a conversation on the way home after ballet lesson..we both share the same view...even thou our ballet certification is at a high grade we just dont feel good or proud of it. She said to me that after so many years of dancing ballet as compared to joining RP modern dance group for just a few mths...she feels that she do better and feel good being in modern dance rather than in ballet. I totally understand how she feels. It feels good dancing on stage,cos i will never forget my first hiphop dance in Japan. It is so fun and free...no one tells you what to do...you will automatically practice dance moves yourself at home, having so much fun practicing together. Not like in ballet, the teacher will shout and scream at us e.g. your legs are not straight or your legs are not long enuf...i feel like so disappointed at myself and sometimes hurt by the remarks of my teacher. I nearly cried in the mist of ballet lesson not just once but many times. "Your legs not long enuf!!" yar yar! i have shorter legs, not tall enough and didnt meet the required height of a ballerina..but that doesnt mean i cant dance. How do you expect me to grow taller?
Yar...sometimes i regrat taking advance foundation, but theres no turning back now. After exam i hope i can make a big turn in to hiphop or something else instead. No more ballet exam please! Woa...busy months are comming up!!!!! Jiao you!
